for the past three weeks our schedules have been off. he’s been gone. i’ve had guests. he’s had guests. before we were seeing each other almost every day and now we’re maybe talking for 10 minutes each day… over text. the last two days he’s made comments about things that have made me so mad and hurt and made me question whether we’re going in the same direction (something i have never questioned in the past). it’s been hard. i’ve never been to this place in a relationship. i’ve always abandoned ship when things got hard real. but with him some small voice inside has been telling me to hold on. to move with the waves and see where the storm takes me. and then i got this unexpected delivery at work. it made me think about the sky after a storm. how the clouds seem like cotton candy and the sky is a bright blue and the water is calm and all the colors seem sharper and the world just feels clean. we’re going to get through this storm. i can feel it.
